Waves of grief

Grief comes in waves for me

Crashing in over my head

And then it's water recedes

Only to crash in again.

Sometimes with such force,

It takes my breath away.

And I don't know why it comes as a surprise to me each time!

After all, I am at it's waters edge

What did I expect?

So I learn to submit to its rhythm

In and Out

A sudden rush of tears

I stop and let them come

Have the moment they need

And then

I carry on.

Grief never goes
Never far away anyway.

I'm still wading in it

Sometimes in the shallows

Sometimes up to my knees, my waist, my neck

But it does recede

Enough for me to bear it

Before I face it again.

I find mercy in the ebb and flow

Freedom to just be

Just let it come when it does

Let it go when it goes

I surrender to it

I'm lead by it

Receive healing in it.

psalmist bex